Tag: narcissists
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I should have trusted my gut…

I found this in a journal this morning. I wrote this. I’m pretty sure a year into us dating…
Jessica Blake
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You Have To Make Your Own Sunshine

I have spent the last 9 years walking on eggshells, ensuring I didn’t upset my husband. Making sure he wouldn’t leave me. I remember the first time this happened. We were engaged, and I was begging him for forgiveness, even though he was the one acting irrationally. This isn’t about revenge, it’s about freedom and…
Jessica Blake
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Has he cheated? Probably.

Why am I still married? Well, as of right now, I make more money than he does. I worry he will try to get alimony or at least try to make the divorce as expensive as possible for me, just to make my life harder. And let’s be clear, as a mom of two boys,…
Jessica Blake
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Quietly Reclaiming Myself

Like I’ve said, I’m in it for the long game. I need to prepare myself and finances first. I’m also quietly reclaiming myself. I don’t think he has noticed, but a narcissist wouldn’t comment on it if he did. I’ve been actually getting ready for work, wearing make-up, wearing jewlery, doing my hair. I used…
Jessica Blake
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“You’re just not a creative person,” and other stupid shit he tells me
It didn’t start making sense to me until recently, when I truly started self-reflecting on my entire relationship. The number of things he has told me so poignantly to successfully trash my confidence and take away who I am as a person. When I was in my 20s, I really found my passion for cooking…
Jessica Blake
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The Signs Were Always There
When he started messaging me, something felt fake. He always says I was playing hard to get, but my instincts were telling me that this was not the real man on the other side of the messages. After getting my heart broken by who I would venture to guess was my soulmate/ love of my…